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Yesterday, Peter (our neighbor and good friend of the family) birthday and we were invited to barbecue . Was quite ok, although a bit boring but this I am to blame;. I would have been able to finally talk with Sandra and Sven's girlfriend ... I am not for some time more talkative. Well, anyway, I was still at half 1 with all who were still there at the kitchen table when my father told me that I should go to bed so slow times. Then it flared up a hot debate about whether I could still stay up or not. I have since largely kept out because my Dad anyway pretty angep * sst about was that other people interfere with his education. He then argued with the fact that my generation is just plain lazy to work, did not want and so on. Nice to know that it's not me, but to society, I am finally sh ** ßegal! No matter what has really made me ready, is that he has shouted at me before all. I just can not handle it, if I am yelling. I know that my own diluted * mmt * debt, and that finally should I stop being so hypersensitive, but I almost started crying - ahead of all! In addition, I almost verquatscht because I'm told that I can not sleep anyway ...
Well, I went to my room, I'm there with a blanket on the floor down (because I respect my bed yet and do not feel it had, therefore, take the stairs down again) and howl started like so 'n Baby. Why do I cry constantly? This brings nothing but eh, of which I get a headache. Sun dam rt *** I must also be the first time ...

I have long been the feeling that time passes too quickly. I just can not keep up and I wish I would stop it. I hate change and this time inevitably brings with it. I have great fear of the future because I am, despite my 16 years, still feel as a child. I'm not a bit of their own. I stand in the way even with my self-doubt, my negative thinking, and my compulsion to control. I want to be dead, but am afraid of death ...
I would like to talk to people from suicide thread about it, but all have so many problems of its own. I'm coming alone clear. Today at

Lunch, my mother then asked us if we can find that their education is too strict. I've said no. True. If I did often at parties, I could go and my dad picks me up at night also sleeping hours. Stewardship of my pocket money must be in the moment a bit, but it is enough. And that we would have too much help around the house, I can not say too ...