jisatsu90 @ 2007-08-18T15: 12:00
Since the school again, I come to nothing. I can only 2 hours per day on the PC, so I have no time to make something great. I've been about 2 weeks not with someone from the suicide thread (which has now been renamed to "Fragile Souls") is spoken, and I miss all of the total. - Even if the therapist says, it would not be good that I have that contact, because I was supposed to be very charged and insightful view is eye * twist *. In RL I also come to nothing because I can not be bothered.
My father has been in the mental hospital open last week. Today he is at home and I am again fled to my room.
is in the autumn holidays I psychosomatic on the station. The Thera hinschicken'd most like right there. Am I really Sun sick?
Saturday, August 18, 2007
Monday, August 6, 2007
Heather Cervical Mucus
First day
the first day of school so now I have behind me. As bad as I had feared he was not. I feel very alone when I look at my courses, even though my girls and I have chosen much the same, we will miss. Daria I Päda together and physics, with Katrin music and physics. Julia, I will seen only in Päda. Free lessons are always right in the middle and double periods are generally interrupted by a big break. When I did sports, I do not know yet, I just hope that does not overlap with Taekwon-Do.
Our senior coordinator makes the whole for the first time I think she is just as uncertain as we do. In the speech this morning I would have least wanted a voice recorder as fast as she has the runtergerattert. Right at the front sat a girl who looked very sad and very alone. Julia and I have agreed that we will respond again. Daria has also tried to make conversation. She told us that they just went to two girls and introduced himself. They have looked like a car.
's past was easier to close friendships. Since it is just went there, asked "Do we want to be friends" and then everything was ok. But a new acquaintance, we had that already. Before Daria knew her name, she always said to us: "The colored with the hair, which is nice." In Päda we then found out that "the colored with the hair" Janine called. After school we were talking a little with her.
Katrina was picked up by her driving instructor for driving lessons and took me. At the start I had doubts whether the fact a good idea had been to But then she has mastered the really very confident.
the first day of school so now I have behind me. As bad as I had feared he was not. I feel very alone when I look at my courses, even though my girls and I have chosen much the same, we will miss. Daria I Päda together and physics, with Katrin music and physics. Julia, I will seen only in Päda. Free lessons are always right in the middle and double periods are generally interrupted by a big break. When I did sports, I do not know yet, I just hope that does not overlap with Taekwon-Do.
Our senior coordinator makes the whole for the first time I think she is just as uncertain as we do. In the speech this morning I would have least wanted a voice recorder as fast as she has the runtergerattert. Right at the front sat a girl who looked very sad and very alone. Julia and I have agreed that we will respond again. Daria has also tried to make conversation. She told us that they just went to two girls and introduced himself. They have looked like a car.
's past was easier to close friendships. Since it is just went there, asked "Do we want to be friends" and then everything was ok. But a new acquaintance, we had that already. Before Daria knew her name, she always said to us: "The colored with the hair, which is nice." In Päda we then found out that "the colored with the hair" Janine called. After school we were talking a little with her.
Katrina was picked up by her driving instructor for driving lessons and took me. At the start I had doubts whether the fact a good idea had been to But then she has mastered the really very confident.
Saturday, August 4, 2007
Chocolate Cigarellos How To Make
Michael and Anne
I've already received two emails from Michael again. Kelly had said he wanted to sort out some "friends" and I was really hoping that we would be there, but apparently
... I can not put into words what I feel now. I'm just shocked, I think, perhaps stunned. I'm not even able to play back the mail with my own words. Therefore I quote them just to love
"Hey You,
so a few of you would still have time photos. So I propose again to my sweet Anne :-) Then again alone the monument of the fallen.
Then my two guinea pigs :-) My boys.
Anne And when diving. Did it yesterday. I miss her already full because we can use the phone at the moment only the evening or at night :-( Well this is it last 6 hours again become what we had to tell everything.
I am just so grateful to Anne that you stand by me and is always there for me if I butcher's. But she said again yesterday that would soak never from my side and because I now go to Psyologen yes it can only go uphill.
I have so much shit the last months building and yet you stand by me as never a man before in my life.
On Mitwoch is my first diving hour. Because I want because Tauchsein now as soon as possible, we also have the time together diving.
week after next you come to me over the WE. I'm looking forward. :-)
And at 11.09. It is indeed 18 and I am with you. Yes I know that's not such a great day for a birthday but it can be ausseuchen not so. :-)
are so here are my new numbers.
Mobile: 0160 Festnetzt -********
: 0271 -********
Have changed my contract so that Anne and I also now call the day always for free and can also SMS to each other no longer cost.
Bey your Micha :-) "
I need something to calm the first time.
I've already received two emails from Michael again. Kelly had said he wanted to sort out some "friends" and I was really hoping that we would be there, but apparently
... I can not put into words what I feel now. I'm just shocked, I think, perhaps stunned. I'm not even able to play back the mail with my own words. Therefore I quote them just to love
"Hey You,
so a few of you would still have time photos. So I propose again to my sweet Anne :-) Then again alone the monument of the fallen.
Then my two guinea pigs :-) My boys.
Anne And when diving. Did it yesterday. I miss her already full because we can use the phone at the moment only the evening or at night :-( Well this is it last 6 hours again become what we had to tell everything.
I am just so grateful to Anne that you stand by me and is always there for me if I butcher's. But she said again yesterday that would soak never from my side and because I now go to Psyologen yes it can only go uphill.
I have so much shit the last months building and yet you stand by me as never a man before in my life.
On Mitwoch is my first diving hour. Because I want because Tauchsein now as soon as possible, we also have the time together diving.
week after next you come to me over the WE. I'm looking forward. :-)
And at 11.09. It is indeed 18 and I am with you. Yes I know that's not such a great day for a birthday but it can be ausseuchen not so. :-)
are so here are my new numbers.
Mobile: 0160 Festnetzt -********
: 0271 -********
Have changed my contract so that Anne and I also now call the day always for free and can also SMS to each other no longer cost.
Bey your Micha :-) "
I need something to calm the first time.
Friday, August 3, 2007
Microwaves In The 1920
now
Fri, 03:08:07, 16:25 clock
The film was yesterday Sun He was pretty effektheischerisch and I took most of the time tended to focus on the errors, but otherwise quite nice. Maybe I was just too tired to be excited.
Normally there are popcorn when we go to the movies, we do it anyway so rare. This time I've dispensed with, which surprised my mom pretty. Of the Haribo cherries, it has offered me, but I ate 3 pieces.
At home there was pizza, my whole Daily balance is messed up. Actually, I like pizza, even if it gives us far too often. But yesterday it took me so alittle bit disgusted
Tarek had while we were away, visiting and tinkered a bit - to include styrofoam. There were quite a crash, because he has sucked away the remains and the vacuum cleaner would have been almost destroyed. My mother was extremely annoyed, and has argued with Dad. She called through the apartment, whether we would find it better if they would also just set the whole day on a PC. I always feel damn guilty if someone screams - even though I, unlike yesterday, I'm not even addressed. Also, I've always illogically a certain fear that to let my parents divorce when they argue. I hope my father is going away soon for a cure.
I'm asleep in the evening watching TV, but my brother got me wake. Thank God I was still asleep relatively quickly, when I was in bed. Woke up
I'm also relatively early. This works with getting up but not quite.
Then said my father to have to annoy me and told me in detail that we need to collect my payment, the family doctor, however, to make in half an hour and we do not have a car, because Mama is indeed at work and Peter is not even there just to tell me then, I can pick up the transfer at half past 3 in the pharmacy in the village.
I was then too, but had received no referral. I was even in both pharmacies, but nowhere they had arrived. When the family doctor was no more, so my father will be on Monday morning to get involved.
For lunch I ate a little rice with curry sauce and peas and carrots.
is nice weather outside, I think I'll go out a little.
clock 18:04
I am now back again, was' an hour on the road. Finally I once did what I always wanted to do again. I'm looking for a direction decided and I just went - without a goal, only to a specific time.
I almost came to Rummenohl, just before I have repented. To go back felt weird because I suddenly had a goal yet. Somewhere I also wanted to return not, I think.
At Aldi I then met Peter and let him take me. But instead I have helped him and listened to him. Peter hears himself talk, I have the feeling.
Now I will drink something and eat only a little fruit.
clock 18:54
I be real 'ne masochist needs. I get my mind off of my hunger and watch a cooking show * headdesk *
clock 19:34
I hate cooking shows, but now I eat something else. I have no discipline.
times today I will go to bed early. Maybe I'm able to get up tomorrow exceptionally early. I also have tomorrow to pack my school bag. If I only do Monday morning, so I forget everything.
clock 22:02
waking sleep, the time between and is the most terrible of the day. If one tries to sleep, the thoughts are so loud and painful. I just want to sleep yet (and not wake up).
I want to believe (again?). I want something that I hold on me can, which I take my (ongoing) fear of death. I wish nothing more than to believe in God.
Sat, 04:08:07, 1:56 clock
Now I'm wide awake and can not sleep again.
Fri, 03:08:07, 16:25 clock
The film was yesterday Sun He was pretty effektheischerisch and I took most of the time tended to focus on the errors, but otherwise quite nice. Maybe I was just too tired to be excited.
Normally there are popcorn when we go to the movies, we do it anyway so rare. This time I've dispensed with, which surprised my mom pretty. Of the Haribo cherries, it has offered me, but I ate 3 pieces.
At home there was pizza, my whole Daily balance is messed up. Actually, I like pizza, even if it gives us far too often. But yesterday it took me so alittle bit disgusted
Tarek had while we were away, visiting and tinkered a bit - to include styrofoam. There were quite a crash, because he has sucked away the remains and the vacuum cleaner would have been almost destroyed. My mother was extremely annoyed, and has argued with Dad. She called through the apartment, whether we would find it better if they would also just set the whole day on a PC. I always feel damn guilty if someone screams - even though I, unlike yesterday, I'm not even addressed. Also, I've always illogically a certain fear that to let my parents divorce when they argue. I hope my father is going away soon for a cure.
I'm asleep in the evening watching TV, but my brother got me wake. Thank God I was still asleep relatively quickly, when I was in bed. Woke up
I'm also relatively early. This works with getting up but not quite.
Then said my father to have to annoy me and told me in detail that we need to collect my payment, the family doctor, however, to make in half an hour and we do not have a car, because Mama is indeed at work and Peter is not even there just to tell me then, I can pick up the transfer at half past 3 in the pharmacy in the village.
I was then too, but had received no referral. I was even in both pharmacies, but nowhere they had arrived. When the family doctor was no more, so my father will be on Monday morning to get involved.
For lunch I ate a little rice with curry sauce and peas and carrots.
is nice weather outside, I think I'll go out a little.
clock 18:04
I am now back again, was' an hour on the road. Finally I once did what I always wanted to do again. I'm looking for a direction decided and I just went - without a goal, only to a specific time.
I almost came to Rummenohl, just before I have repented. To go back felt weird because I suddenly had a goal yet. Somewhere I also wanted to return not, I think.
At Aldi I then met Peter and let him take me. But instead I have helped him and listened to him. Peter hears himself talk, I have the feeling.
Now I will drink something and eat only a little fruit.
clock 18:54
I be real 'ne masochist needs. I get my mind off of my hunger and watch a cooking show * headdesk *
clock 19:34
I hate cooking shows, but now I eat something else. I have no discipline.
times today I will go to bed early. Maybe I'm able to get up tomorrow exceptionally early. I also have tomorrow to pack my school bag. If I only do Monday morning, so I forget everything.
clock 22:02
waking sleep, the time between and is the most terrible of the day. If one tries to sleep, the thoughts are so loud and painful. I just want to sleep yet (and not wake up).
I want to believe (again?). I want something that I hold on me can, which I take my (ongoing) fear of death. I wish nothing more than to believe in God.
Sat, 04:08:07, 1:56 clock
Now I'm wide awake and can not sleep again.
Hgb Blood Test Safe Upper Limit
Friday to Monday to Thursday in extracts
I'm lazy, forgetful and undizipliniert (to name only some of my bad qualities and weaknesses). Therefore, I squeeze everything that has happened in 4 days, in an entry.
Mo, 07.30.2007, 22:06
Ironically, I've just logged into the self-help forum where Micah had also written. I am ever come only through him there. I have his Links geöffnet und das Forum gefiel mir auf Anhieb. Jedoch hatte ich nicht vor, mich dort Micha auszusetzen, weshalb ich mich nur ein wenig umgeschaut habe ohne mich zu registrieren.
Gestern bin ich den Links dann noch mal gefolgt und habe gesehen, dass unter seinem Nick jetzt „unregistriert“ steht, weshalb ich genug Mut gefasst hab, um mich dort anzumelden – zumal es mir gestern echt mies ging.
Ich denke, dass ich mich dort wohl fühlen werde.
Di, 31.07.07, 4:02 Uhr
In genau einer Woche, 10 Stunden und 28 Minuten habe ich meinen ersten Termin bei der Thera. Ich glaube, ich sollte nervös sein. Vielleicht wäre auch Freude darüber, dass I finally got professional help (God, sounds like that) get the appropriate emotion.
No, that's how I know would be an understatement still very nervous. I would almost panic and would always "I do not" think.
Yes, if I had feelings, I would react like that. Almost disturbing, as I'm cool.
Exactly 3 weeks is my world collapsed. I have lost the ground beneath the feet final and the only thing that keeps me even more is a rope. Whispers from the bottom of the abyss beguiling words, while above me one hand holds the rope, but not pull it. The scissors I have in my hand.
Wed, 01:08:07, 01:50 clock
Is life a privilege or an audit? If you make the most of it or just trying to get over it as possible without prejudice? How have we deserve to live? Why were we not asked if we ever do? What did the whole thing for a purpose?
all questions unanswered. Especially the last can only be answered for himself.
If I had to give three possible answers would be the first
Life has not. Point. Off. Done. Heul quiet, if it do not like.
second The meaning of life is to search for the meaning of life. The answer would my philosophy teacher like it.
third Everyone needs his life for themselves give meaning. Whether this sense is really useful too, is ultimately subjective. Personally I would tend
yes to a mixture of all three. Too bad that 1 and 2 are mutually exclusive. Then probably rather first
What was that again: "In the moment when a man questioned the meaning and value of life, he is sick." (Sigmund Freud)
Is it presumptuous to Freud described as naive?
Thu, 02:08:07, 00:28 clock
There are only 4 days until I must return to school. Four days and nights I've had time to think Sleep schedule (and my spelling) back into order.
Actually I wanted to do the former yesterday, as I completely do without sleep and for the next day before going to bed. This also has worked out quite well, as my alarm clock rang, I was awake anyway. Gone to sleep I went after I had pressed the 5-minute key. Maybe I
creating today's yes. Finally
would it not so sparkling when I on the first day in high school learn in anything.
I believe that in the upper secondary level, everything changes. I hate change, they frighten me.
I had to do with my classmates never much. I was just KleinDrucksi, those who always has good grades without learning, and then not even happy about it, those who can not make-up and clothes with no brand, those who will not go away over the weekend and gets drunk. You have come to me when they said something or did have homework. Otherwise, I was just here - no more and no less.
Nevertheless, I find myself often at the thought that I would not want the class associations are dissolved. Daria and Kate, my mom calls it as girls are, at least in the majors in no case with me in a course. Crazy enough to choose computer science, were few, and the same is with music. Also, I'm afraid
before, but now that that happens, since I was afraid for so long: that I suddenly stopped everything falls into your lap. I never learned how to learn, because I never had. I always have everything immediately understood what the teacher said, and could apply it directly without having it looked at me again at home. Also, simple formulas can set up alone if I have a clear statement.
What I'm not at all clear, however, is the method I give you now a few leaves. Edit it and you worked out the formula itself " Even if I can bring myself to actually edit some of these tasks, it might stick either nothing or I understand do not know what it is. Something
Mathematics - as I've not even noticed the name, I think it was something with periods - we should also develop in this way myself. SK has invested in it are just 3 lessons, however, previously threatened us that we need this topic in physics. I have not understood even begin, and the rest of the class probably not, but physics will haunt me until graduation. What do I do now?
My spelling can also be quite unsatisfactory, since I only had the internet and write me again in a process of being where I am able to start a book, where I know otherwise 'm such a bookworm. If I do not watch, I write as soon as my father - and he is dyslexic. Therefore, he asked me in between, something to type for him.
He thinks I type fast. Well, everything is relative and subjective perception always depends on the comparison. He proposed to me at least, but even to make a writing course. I would really like to learn. Maybe I'm no longer so often too slow when I chat or reply to a forum topic.
[...]
say all, I would be (too) thin. My mother calls me an asparagus, has a teacher when I did not want a piece of cake said "You do not want !. Has to be not anorexic, "and Hannah begged me in Amsterdam almost to eat a wine gum
Objectively, I weigh not enough I have a BMI of 22;.. It is within the normal range eat I also persistent, so I Anorexia can rule out definitely.
Subjectively, I find myself still too thick. I hate the fat rolls that come to light when I sit down, I hate my big thighs and calves. I have often thought to decrease. It would indeed already inadequate if I stop to eat out of boredom, but I can not.
with 5 pounds less I would even still a normal weight. 45kg sounds also much better than 50kg.
6:47 clock
sccheint The first phase of my plan to have succeeded. I have not slept. If I'm lucky I'm even awake after a shower.
clock 10:40
wax is somehow not the right word to write my state. I yawn constantly and am so alittle bit of the track. Nevertheless, my brain is still working at full speed.
I'm hungry - I think anyway. My mother is at half / 1:45 from work and then make dinner. Normally, I would stew in the meantime something sweet in me, but today I will not. Today I want to prove to me that there are other way. 45kg hear really good.
clock 14:16
Today is a day that would be the one to have stayed in bed. I just do not know if I got him with my self-imposed sleep deprivation to make that my days have once again ready to fit the worst possible time, or if I was as caught up in something like that often.
I just slept a couple of minutes, but still come out of the yawning not get out. Right in the movie I intended to sleep. I also have abdominal pain and headaches.
to eat mom brought sandwiches. I was not hungry because I was woken up just before, but I'm forced to do a half Brötchen ohne alles zu essen.
I'm lazy, forgetful and undizipliniert (to name only some of my bad qualities and weaknesses). Therefore, I squeeze everything that has happened in 4 days, in an entry.
Mo, 07.30.2007, 22:06
Ironically, I've just logged into the self-help forum where Micah had also written. I am ever come only through him there. I have his Links geöffnet und das Forum gefiel mir auf Anhieb. Jedoch hatte ich nicht vor, mich dort Micha auszusetzen, weshalb ich mich nur ein wenig umgeschaut habe ohne mich zu registrieren.
Gestern bin ich den Links dann noch mal gefolgt und habe gesehen, dass unter seinem Nick jetzt „unregistriert“ steht, weshalb ich genug Mut gefasst hab, um mich dort anzumelden – zumal es mir gestern echt mies ging.
Ich denke, dass ich mich dort wohl fühlen werde.
Di, 31.07.07, 4:02 Uhr
In genau einer Woche, 10 Stunden und 28 Minuten habe ich meinen ersten Termin bei der Thera. Ich glaube, ich sollte nervös sein. Vielleicht wäre auch Freude darüber, dass I finally got professional help (God, sounds like that) get the appropriate emotion.
No, that's how I know would be an understatement still very nervous. I would almost panic and would always "I do not" think.
Yes, if I had feelings, I would react like that. Almost disturbing, as I'm cool.
Exactly 3 weeks is my world collapsed. I have lost the ground beneath the feet final and the only thing that keeps me even more is a rope. Whispers from the bottom of the abyss beguiling words, while above me one hand holds the rope, but not pull it. The scissors I have in my hand.
Wed, 01:08:07, 01:50 clock
Is life a privilege or an audit? If you make the most of it or just trying to get over it as possible without prejudice? How have we deserve to live? Why were we not asked if we ever do? What did the whole thing for a purpose?
all questions unanswered. Especially the last can only be answered for himself.
If I had to give three possible answers would be the first
Life has not. Point. Off. Done. Heul quiet, if it do not like.
second The meaning of life is to search for the meaning of life. The answer would my philosophy teacher like it.
third Everyone needs his life for themselves give meaning. Whether this sense is really useful too, is ultimately subjective. Personally I would tend
yes to a mixture of all three. Too bad that 1 and 2 are mutually exclusive. Then probably rather first
What was that again: "In the moment when a man questioned the meaning and value of life, he is sick." (Sigmund Freud)
Is it presumptuous to Freud described as naive?
Thu, 02:08:07, 00:28 clock
There are only 4 days until I must return to school. Four days and nights I've had time to think Sleep schedule (and my spelling) back into order.
Actually I wanted to do the former yesterday, as I completely do without sleep and for the next day before going to bed. This also has worked out quite well, as my alarm clock rang, I was awake anyway. Gone to sleep I went after I had pressed the 5-minute key. Maybe I
creating today's yes. Finally
would it not so sparkling when I on the first day in high school learn in anything.
I believe that in the upper secondary level, everything changes. I hate change, they frighten me.
I had to do with my classmates never much. I was just KleinDrucksi, those who always has good grades without learning, and then not even happy about it, those who can not make-up and clothes with no brand, those who will not go away over the weekend and gets drunk. You have come to me when they said something or did have homework. Otherwise, I was just here - no more and no less.
Nevertheless, I find myself often at the thought that I would not want the class associations are dissolved. Daria and Kate, my mom calls it as girls are, at least in the majors in no case with me in a course. Crazy enough to choose computer science, were few, and the same is with music. Also, I'm afraid
before, but now that that happens, since I was afraid for so long: that I suddenly stopped everything falls into your lap. I never learned how to learn, because I never had. I always have everything immediately understood what the teacher said, and could apply it directly without having it looked at me again at home. Also, simple formulas can set up alone if I have a clear statement.
What I'm not at all clear, however, is the method I give you now a few leaves. Edit it and you worked out the formula itself " Even if I can bring myself to actually edit some of these tasks, it might stick either nothing or I understand do not know what it is. Something
Mathematics - as I've not even noticed the name, I think it was something with periods - we should also develop in this way myself. SK has invested in it are just 3 lessons, however, previously threatened us that we need this topic in physics. I have not understood even begin, and the rest of the class probably not, but physics will haunt me until graduation. What do I do now?
My spelling can also be quite unsatisfactory, since I only had the internet and write me again in a process of being where I am able to start a book, where I know otherwise 'm such a bookworm. If I do not watch, I write as soon as my father - and he is dyslexic. Therefore, he asked me in between, something to type for him.
He thinks I type fast. Well, everything is relative and subjective perception always depends on the comparison. He proposed to me at least, but even to make a writing course. I would really like to learn. Maybe I'm no longer so often too slow when I chat or reply to a forum topic.
[...]
say all, I would be (too) thin. My mother calls me an asparagus, has a teacher when I did not want a piece of cake said "You do not want !. Has to be not anorexic, "and Hannah begged me in Amsterdam almost to eat a wine gum
Objectively, I weigh not enough I have a BMI of 22;.. It is within the normal range eat I also persistent, so I Anorexia can rule out definitely.
Subjectively, I find myself still too thick. I hate the fat rolls that come to light when I sit down, I hate my big thighs and calves. I have often thought to decrease. It would indeed already inadequate if I stop to eat out of boredom, but I can not.
with 5 pounds less I would even still a normal weight. 45kg sounds also much better than 50kg.
6:47 clock
sccheint The first phase of my plan to have succeeded. I have not slept. If I'm lucky I'm even awake after a shower.
clock 10:40
wax is somehow not the right word to write my state. I yawn constantly and am so alittle bit of the track. Nevertheless, my brain is still working at full speed.
I'm hungry - I think anyway. My mother is at half / 1:45 from work and then make dinner. Normally, I would stew in the meantime something sweet in me, but today I will not. Today I want to prove to me that there are other way. 45kg hear really good.
clock 14:16
Today is a day that would be the one to have stayed in bed. I just do not know if I got him with my self-imposed sleep deprivation to make that my days have once again ready to fit the worst possible time, or if I was as caught up in something like that often.
I just slept a couple of minutes, but still come out of the yawning not get out. Right in the movie I intended to sleep. I also have abdominal pain and headaches.
to eat mom brought sandwiches. I was not hungry because I was woken up just before, but I'm forced to do a half Brötchen ohne alles zu essen.
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Letter For Dental Hygiene Student
Why the world would be better off without me:
Ich bin eine Nervensäge. Ich nerve so ziemlich jeden, der mir über den Weg läuft.
Meine Freunde nerve ich mit meinem Gejammere und damit, dass ich meine, alles besser zu wissen. Wenn mich jemand aufmuntern will, jammer ich weiter. Ich ziehe andere mit runter und belaste sie mit meinen Problemen.
Außerdem nerve ich ihm Internet, weil ich mich überall einmische und natürlich, weil ich dort meine deprimierenden Gedanken verbreite.
Ich bin eine Belastung für meine Familie. Ein depressives Kind ist immer eine Belastung, weil man aufpassen muss, was man sagt, weil es schnell verletzt ist. Den geplanten Tagesausflug konnten wir nicht machen. Auch das ist meine Fault because I've told the school psychologist, I think the evening times that I do not want to wake up again. She then urged me to inform my parents and now they have this ball and chain. I
worsen the depression of my father, I make my mother's circumstances and only let my bad mood out on my brother.
Just because I feel bad, everyone else goes bad. _Deshalb_ The world would be better off without me.
Ich bin eine Nervensäge. Ich nerve so ziemlich jeden, der mir über den Weg läuft.
Meine Freunde nerve ich mit meinem Gejammere und damit, dass ich meine, alles besser zu wissen. Wenn mich jemand aufmuntern will, jammer ich weiter. Ich ziehe andere mit runter und belaste sie mit meinen Problemen.
Außerdem nerve ich ihm Internet, weil ich mich überall einmische und natürlich, weil ich dort meine deprimierenden Gedanken verbreite.
Ich bin eine Belastung für meine Familie. Ein depressives Kind ist immer eine Belastung, weil man aufpassen muss, was man sagt, weil es schnell verletzt ist. Den geplanten Tagesausflug konnten wir nicht machen. Auch das ist meine Fault because I've told the school psychologist, I think the evening times that I do not want to wake up again. She then urged me to inform my parents and now they have this ball and chain. I
worsen the depression of my father, I make my mother's circumstances and only let my bad mood out on my brother.
Just because I feel bad, everyone else goes bad. _Deshalb_ The world would be better off without me.
Wedding Party Female Bodybuilder
Year's resolutions for the new school year
next week are going on holiday, but after that's over with the rest. I have firmly resolved to do some things differently in high school:
My good intentions:
I will ...
... My new priorities.
... I reported more often (especially in philosophy, physics and music).
... take notes in physics, even if we get back Mr. P., who anschreibt in 3 consecutive hours, the same.
... the homework sometimes at home.
... Vocabulary at home and not in the 5-minute break in front of the test to learn.
... to concentrate on not more analysis on unimportant details.
... get up earlier and make me break my own bread have to do if I do not wish to continue to mainly feed on chocolate rolls.
... me the "yes" unlearn from my answers.
... stop to annoy.
... Put a smile, and answer the question about my being back with "good".
... Averages hide better.
... pretend as if I am, if I get ne good grade.
... stretch out your stomach, if I refuse a piece of cake, so do not come back "? You do not want to be as anorexic"
... make more sports and less snacking - remove> one or two pounds.
... try a bit more to be like the others or
... To accept that I am an outsider and change it never will.
next week are going on holiday, but after that's over with the rest. I have firmly resolved to do some things differently in high school:
My good intentions:
I will ...
... My new priorities.
... I reported more often (especially in philosophy, physics and music).
... take notes in physics, even if we get back Mr. P., who anschreibt in 3 consecutive hours, the same.
... the homework sometimes at home.
... Vocabulary at home and not in the 5-minute break in front of the test to learn.
... to concentrate on not more analysis on unimportant details.
... get up earlier and make me break my own bread have to do if I do not wish to continue to mainly feed on chocolate rolls.
... me the "yes" unlearn from my answers.
... stop to annoy.
... Put a smile, and answer the question about my being back with "good".
... Averages hide better.
... pretend as if I am, if I get ne good grade.
... stretch out your stomach, if I refuse a piece of cake, so do not come back "? You do not want to be as anorexic"
... make more sports and less snacking - remove> one or two pounds.
... try a bit more to be like the others or
... To accept that I am an outsider and change it never will.
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
How Do I Get Her To Takeme Over Her Knee
& Blogs "In Dreisig years "
Yes, I know I neglect my lj pretty. I think the reason is that I now myff.de a diary and just had no nerves on the post everything twice. It would not even have a lot of work xD. Maybe I'll do it in the future. Everything that happened between my last entry here and now, one can read the point where there would anyone be interested in my or my existential Rumgeheule.
"The silent stairs" on myfanfiction.de
Also, I've found an article by me in 2001:
"In Dreisig years
will Dreisig years in forty years I be old or dead . I will be writer and write many books or are unemployed, and the State are on the bag . I will write funny, romantic, sad, happy, exciting, imaginative, serious, their adjective here children's books, horse books, joke books, books sayings, adult books, thrillers and Kömödien. Does the versatility or megalomania? Probably I will stay in Schalksmühle as today. I am a house with a red-orange roof and a yellow wall live like today and a small blue car have. Maybe I will additionally Medicine . Study So there I was not completely out of my ego-nurse-like-my-mom-and-out phase will. The car is the number-plate MK have JD 1090. I will have two dwarf rabbits as today. Maybe I'll be married and have a daughter , but if not, it's not too bad. I've got my pet rabbit. my parents I would visit often and take care of them. How social I I will spend some time with my daughter and anmeckern not as often. I will allow her more than I can today. It notes the subtle criticism of the education of my parents. Maybe I will also have a son instead of a daughter or both a daughter and a son I think about the me but anyway I will not be too strict. I'm just thinking if we had learned the point is not there or if I simply do not like it. "
I have the written in my diary, but I thought it was just so sweet that I had to post it again. Naivety but what is great.
Yes, I know I neglect my lj pretty. I think the reason is that I now myff.de a diary and just had no nerves on the post everything twice. It would not even have a lot of work xD. Maybe I'll do it in the future. Everything that happened between my last entry here and now, one can read the point where there would anyone be interested in my or my existential Rumgeheule.
Also, I've found an article by me in 2001:
"In Dreisig years
will Dreisig years in forty years I be old or dead . I will be writer and write many books or are unemployed, and the State are on the bag . I will write funny, romantic, sad, happy, exciting, imaginative, serious, their adjective here children's books, horse books, joke books, books sayings, adult books, thrillers and Kömödien. Does the versatility or megalomania? Probably I will stay in Schalksmühle as today. I am a house with a red-orange roof and a yellow wall live like today and a small blue car have. Maybe I will additionally Medicine . Study So there I was not completely out of my ego-nurse-like-my-mom-and-out phase will. The car is the number-plate MK have JD 1090. I will have two dwarf rabbits as today. Maybe I'll be married and have a daughter , but if not, it's not too bad. I've got my pet rabbit. my parents I would visit often and take care of them. How social I I will spend some time with my daughter and anmeckern not as often. I will allow her more than I can today. It notes the subtle criticism of the education of my parents. Maybe I will also have a son instead of a daughter or both a daughter and a son I think about the me but anyway I will not be too strict. I'm just thinking if we had learned the point is not there or if I simply do not like it. "
I have the written in my diary, but I thought it was just so sweet that I had to post it again. Naivety but what is great.
Wednesday, July 4, 2007
Silver Water For Dogs
clear
So I am now with my parents in the Pats have been but thank God I was allowed to return home after a conversation going * poof *. The school psychologist had made of full panic because I was extremely suicidal and would have to be trained emergency basis. Wow, this Woman upsets me so! Which has only 2 hours talking to me and thinks she knows me so well as![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=1)
elias_destiny and the others.
Well, now I should get "real time" conversation outpatient therapy. Let's see ...
At the briefing was the way
"Va (suspected) depression, compulsive behaviors, insomnia (sleeping)
ADS Exclusion
I have my coach asked if he thinks I might have ADD, because he Courses offered for such children and therefore to have a bit familiar. But he does not think I have it.
Something I find just that my mum only with this compassionate voice speaks to me. I feel as if I were terminally ill.
Oh yes, my parents are way out of the clouds again fallen, when the therapist asked if I hurt myself and I said yes.
So I am now with my parents in the Pats have been but thank God I was allowed to return home after a conversation going * poof *. The school psychologist had made of full panic because I was extremely suicidal and would have to be trained emergency basis. Wow, this Woman upsets me so! Which has only 2 hours talking to me and thinks she knows me so well as
elias_destiny and the others. Well, now I should get "real time" conversation outpatient therapy. Let's see ...
At the briefing was the way
"Va (suspected) depression, compulsive behaviors, insomnia (sleeping)
ADS Exclusion
I have my coach asked if he thinks I might have ADD, because he Courses offered for such children and therefore to have a bit familiar. But he does not think I have it.
Something I find just that my mum only with this compassionate voice speaks to me. I feel as if I were terminally ill.
Oh yes, my parents are way out of the clouds again fallen, when the therapist asked if I hurt myself and I said yes.
Tuesday, July 3, 2007
Curtain Rods Leesburg Florida
Inpatient therapy? Personality Disorder Test
I do not know if today was the best or the worst day of my life.
I have been with the school psychologist and somehow she and Daria managed to persuade me to think that my mother ask her to come and tell her everything. My Mum was hit on the head. Would have never thought and I had the feeling that she was disappointed by me insane. The psychologist has then said that I really need professional help and the best first-patient therapy, because rankommt very bad in-patient treatment places. And then I'm with my mother went to a doctor, so that can teach me. The call is tomorrow, right in the Child and Adolescent Psychiatry in Iserlohn and then the possibly quite quickly.
I'll no longer get out of the howling. That was just all too much.
I do not know if today was the best or the worst day of my life.
I have been with the school psychologist and somehow she and Daria managed to persuade me to think that my mother ask her to come and tell her everything. My Mum was hit on the head. Would have never thought and I had the feeling that she was disappointed by me insane. The psychologist has then said that I really need professional help and the best first-patient therapy, because rankommt very bad in-patient treatment places. And then I'm with my mother went to a doctor, so that can teach me. The call is tomorrow, right in the Child and Adolescent Psychiatry in Iserlohn and then the possibly quite quickly.
I'll no longer get out of the howling. That was just all too much.
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Coach Bags At Jackson Outlet Nj
| Disorder | Rating |
| Paranoid : | High |
| Schizoid : | Moderate |
| Schizotypal : | High |
| Antisocial : | Low |
| Borderline : | Very High |
| Histrionic : | High |
| Narcissistic : | High |
| Avoidant : | Very High |
| Dependent: Very High | |
| Obsessive-Compulsive : | High |
| - Personality Disorder Test - - Personality Disorder Information - | |
If this test results were true, I should have killed myself long ago. And they forgot my compulsion to check eyerything 100 times * laughs *
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
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Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Ipod Touch For Four Dollars
testimony & TKD test
are now so holidays. Believe it or leave it (at times Ronja quote), but I really do not know if I should be happy.
3 people from our class website: Ronja changes the school because they there, the accounting, it needs in the commercial sector, much more intensive and extensive learning; Atta goes to Brazil for a year and Rene is the 3rd Sit time. I want to get used not just to the idea that we are after the holidays, no classes. I think all the time: "I hope you come with Julia in a course and to Pia, Hannah and Jana and ..." Well in the end, and I will stay with them all stop. I had to do with people a lot and never see myself more in the underdog role, but I like them all somewhere and they'll totally miss. Our class teachers, we have given a photo album. This has become really nice and I can Imagine that was a lotta work. He has been pleased, I think.
My testimony is not bad. Normally, I'm 'nen average of 2.5, this time I did it ^ ^ 2.1. I absolutely must figure out what I have done this six months like it usually always ... I'm actually quite happy. Well, the 3 in Franze annoys me pretty - the next year there must be gone - the notes in physics, chemistry and sports are given and how to be artistic in the area as "Worse," I must explain one more time someone What else but ..
Before he has distributed the certificates, then he has made us a bit of pig. On the one hand he complains that some of the classroom "cleaned up" (Ie, the cabinet cleared and distributed the flowers) have, while others (including me) "my [d] they would have to play cards." But he is right. It would have been much more efficiently and effortlessly when we would jostle with 22 people in front of the cabinet. \u0026lt;/ Irony> Secondly, he has also once again excited about spickmich.de. He has talked to us like we were alone responsible for (among other things: "Jana, we'd find you this because if your report card on the Internet would be Would that all right?" Or "Stop it"). Hello! From the side we had previously ever heard anything and we have also considered not! * Slowly calm down again * Well, maybe it is after all good that we now have holiday ... This afternoon I had
then Taekwon-Do-examination. I'll do it short: I had hardly slept, I hurt all I had to first make Break test, I had 'nen small nervous breakdown -> I was never as bad as today. Well there were, we still have all ^ ^
lG, jiu
are now so holidays. Believe it or leave it (at times Ronja quote), but I really do not know if I should be happy.
3 people from our class website: Ronja changes the school because they there, the accounting, it needs in the commercial sector, much more intensive and extensive learning; Atta goes to Brazil for a year and Rene is the 3rd Sit time. I want to get used not just to the idea that we are after the holidays, no classes. I think all the time: "I hope you come with Julia in a course and to Pia, Hannah and Jana and ..." Well in the end, and I will stay with them all stop. I had to do with people a lot and never see myself more in the underdog role, but I like them all somewhere and they'll totally miss. Our class teachers, we have given a photo album. This has become really nice and I can Imagine that was a lotta work. He has been pleased, I think.
My testimony is not bad. Normally, I'm 'nen average of 2.5, this time I did it ^ ^ 2.1. I absolutely must figure out what I have done this six months like it usually always ... I'm actually quite happy. Well, the 3 in Franze annoys me pretty - the next year there must be gone - the notes in physics, chemistry and sports are given and how to be artistic in the area as "Worse," I must explain one more time someone What else but ..
Before he has distributed the certificates, then he has made us a bit of pig. On the one hand he complains that some of the classroom "cleaned up" (Ie, the cabinet cleared and distributed the flowers) have, while others (including me) "my [d] they would have to play cards." But he is right. It would have been much more efficiently and effortlessly when we would jostle with 22 people in front of the cabinet. \u0026lt;/ Irony> Secondly, he has also once again excited about spickmich.de. He has talked to us like we were alone responsible for (among other things: "Jana, we'd find you this because if your report card on the Internet would be Would that all right?" Or "Stop it"). Hello! From the side we had previously ever heard anything and we have also considered not! * Slowly calm down again * Well, maybe it is after all good that we now have holiday ... This afternoon I had
then Taekwon-Do-examination. I'll do it short: I had hardly slept, I hurt all I had to first make Break test, I had 'nen small nervous breakdown -> I was never as bad as today. Well there were, we still have all ^ ^
lG, jiu
Denise Milani Online Dvd Stream
Amsterdam
Yesterday we were in Amsterdam. It is Tradition, the 10 classes that visit the Anne-Frank-Haus/Huis (* lol *), finally we go to the Anne Frank School. As if there were not enough, that we have the theme in almost all subjects for four years over and over again to chew had to * eyes * Distortion:
Well, it was sh * ** ß so before, that we wanted to depart at 6 clock and I therefore had to get up at 5 (Before, I was gonna be a early riser and now ...). Then 3 hours bus ride, which we passed with playing cards and when I had to fight a few times with me because I had minor anxiety. Finally arrived, then immediately began the first mandatory part: Either visit the Van Gogh Museum, a canal tour or a city tour with 'precious teacher. Most of my class has decided on the tour. That was sooo not interesting, but I found impressive, the backyards. If you are in the mall somewhere, sometimes short turns, it's dead quiet. I felt like I just sat there.
The guide then ended at the National momument and we had free time. Daria, Katrina and I then went shopping. From "Water Stones", the "home of the English language books," had both me by the arms out drag ^ ^ "There were so many great books and all * swarm in my favorite language *.
Later we went through the Anne Frank's house rushed, which was totally boring. The rooms were all empty, and the films have since shown that we can have a say under warranty * shake head * The only thing of interest was the original diary - she had beautiful writing.
then have my girls and I were Julia, Hannah, Jana and Mona connected. They had discussions between smaller in the right way and Juliet was pretty annoyed about it. I was the sh ** ßegal. I had a headache and my allergies übelst brought me to fast. I was really annoyed, however, the constant questioning: "Are you all right?" But to me it works great! Although I have been half dead several hours, but otherwise everything is great! Then we passed the Sex Museum * g *. Daria, Hannah and I were inside, the other was too expensive (3 € is yet ...). It was so interesting that they are then also proceed, because we took so long ^ ^ "
thought On the way back then sing a few guys from the b to have to - no matter what;. The main thing sing Groan * *. This had the advantage, however, that I got used to my headache and it just were half as bad.
Atta and today I had to write a text about the text, which then comes to the home page.
Yesterday we were in Amsterdam. It is Tradition, the 10 classes that visit the Anne-Frank-Haus/Huis (* lol *), finally we go to the Anne Frank School. As if there were not enough, that we have the theme in almost all subjects for four years over and over again to chew had to * eyes * Distortion:
Well, it was sh * ** ß so before, that we wanted to depart at 6 clock and I therefore had to get up at 5 (Before, I was gonna be a early riser and now ...). Then 3 hours bus ride, which we passed with playing cards and when I had to fight a few times with me because I had minor anxiety. Finally arrived, then immediately began the first mandatory part: Either visit the Van Gogh Museum, a canal tour or a city tour with 'precious teacher. Most of my class has decided on the tour. That was sooo not interesting, but I found impressive, the backyards. If you are in the mall somewhere, sometimes short turns, it's dead quiet. I felt like I just sat there.
The guide then ended at the National momument and we had free time. Daria, Katrina and I then went shopping. From "Water Stones", the "home of the English language books," had both me by the arms out drag ^ ^ "There were so many great books and all * swarm in my favorite language *.
Later we went through the Anne Frank's house rushed, which was totally boring. The rooms were all empty, and the films have since shown that we can have a say under warranty * shake head * The only thing of interest was the original diary - she had beautiful writing.
then have my girls and I were Julia, Hannah, Jana and Mona connected. They had discussions between smaller in the right way and Juliet was pretty annoyed about it. I was the sh ** ßegal. I had a headache and my allergies übelst brought me to fast. I was really annoyed, however, the constant questioning: "Are you all right?" But to me it works great! Although I have been half dead several hours, but otherwise everything is great! Then we passed the Sex Museum * g *. Daria, Hannah and I were inside, the other was too expensive (3 € is yet ...). It was so interesting that they are then also proceed, because we took so long ^ ^ "
thought On the way back then sing a few guys from the b to have to - no matter what;. The main thing sing Groan * *. This had the advantage, however, that I got used to my headache and it just were half as bad.
Atta and today I had to write a text about the text, which then comes to the home page.
Sunday, June 17, 2007
What Are The Meaning Of The Gel Bracelets?
Peters spickmich.de birthday
Yesterday, Peter (our neighbor and good friend of the family) birthday and we were invited to barbecue . Was quite ok, although a bit boring but this I am to blame;. I would have been able to finally talk with Sandra and Sven's girlfriend ... I am not for some time more talkative. Well, anyway, I was still at half 1 with all who were still there at the kitchen table when my father told me that I should go to bed so slow times. Then it flared up a hot debate about whether I could still stay up or not. I have since largely kept out because my Dad anyway pretty angep * sst about was that other people interfere with his education. He then argued with the fact that my generation is just plain lazy to work, did not want and so on. Nice to know that it's not me, but to society, I am finally sh ** ßegal! No matter what has really made me ready, is that he has shouted at me before all. I just can not handle it, if I am yelling. I know that my own diluted * mmt * debt, and that finally should I stop being so hypersensitive, but I almost started crying - ahead of all! In addition, I almost verquatscht because I'm told that I can not sleep anyway ...
Well, I went to my room, I'm there with a blanket on the floor down (because I respect my bed yet and do not feel it had, therefore, take the stairs down again) and howl started like so 'n Baby. Why do I cry constantly? This brings nothing but eh, of which I get a headache. Sun dam rt *** I must also be the first time ...
I have long been the feeling that time passes too quickly. I just can not keep up and I wish I would stop it. I hate change and this time inevitably brings with it. I have great fear of the future because I am, despite my 16 years, still feel as a child. I'm not a bit of their own. I stand in the way even with my self-doubt, my negative thinking, and my compulsion to control. I want to be dead, but am afraid of death ...
I would like to talk to people from suicide thread about it, but all have so many problems of its own. I'm coming alone clear. Today at
Lunch, my mother then asked us if we can find that their education is too strict. I've said no. True. If I did often at parties, I could go and my dad picks me up at night also sleeping hours. Stewardship of my pocket money must be in the moment a bit, but it is enough. And that we would have too much help around the house, I can not say too ...
Yesterday, Peter (our neighbor and good friend of the family) birthday and we were invited to barbecue . Was quite ok, although a bit boring but this I am to blame;. I would have been able to finally talk with Sandra and Sven's girlfriend ... I am not for some time more talkative. Well, anyway, I was still at half 1 with all who were still there at the kitchen table when my father told me that I should go to bed so slow times. Then it flared up a hot debate about whether I could still stay up or not. I have since largely kept out because my Dad anyway pretty angep * sst about was that other people interfere with his education. He then argued with the fact that my generation is just plain lazy to work, did not want and so on. Nice to know that it's not me, but to society, I am finally sh ** ßegal! No matter what has really made me ready, is that he has shouted at me before all. I just can not handle it, if I am yelling. I know that my own diluted * mmt * debt, and that finally should I stop being so hypersensitive, but I almost started crying - ahead of all! In addition, I almost verquatscht because I'm told that I can not sleep anyway ...
Well, I went to my room, I'm there with a blanket on the floor down (because I respect my bed yet and do not feel it had, therefore, take the stairs down again) and howl started like so 'n Baby. Why do I cry constantly? This brings nothing but eh, of which I get a headache. Sun dam rt *** I must also be the first time ...
I have long been the feeling that time passes too quickly. I just can not keep up and I wish I would stop it. I hate change and this time inevitably brings with it. I have great fear of the future because I am, despite my 16 years, still feel as a child. I'm not a bit of their own. I stand in the way even with my self-doubt, my negative thinking, and my compulsion to control. I want to be dead, but am afraid of death ...
I would like to talk to people from suicide thread about it, but all have so many problems of its own. I'm coming alone clear. Today at
Lunch, my mother then asked us if we can find that their education is too strict. I've said no. True. If I did often at parties, I could go and my dad picks me up at night also sleeping hours. Stewardship of my pocket money must be in the moment a bit, but it is enough. And that we would have too much help around the house, I can not say too ...
Friday, June 15, 2007
Monİca Roccaforte Cd Watch
had from spickmich.de I heard to this day. Therefore, I realized the extent of not, that would take the discussion than take our English teacher with us the movie "The Island" (English with English subtitles good fit with the theme, all are up to 3 people already 16) wanted to continue teaching sit and watch for the book. As justification, they explained to us that was talked about yesterday on the Lehrer-/Zeugniskonferenz listed on this page that some teachers in our school and assessed (in addition you can for some time on youtube a recording from the lessons of my math / class teacher to listen - EDIT: Not anymore ...). She is also on this page (it has not, however, viewed) and is now amending its entire classes because they feel observed and nothing will let it be said.
I (and a few others from my class) I have now seen the page views. The fact is that 11 teachers are in there (under "graded" dive but only 2 on). But the fact is: No teacher is with images in it and no teacher has already so many reviews that they are shown. I think it's not ok, they are in there at all (even my when the operator of the site they doing an incredibly good work), but the response I find excessive. I just hope that she has calmed down after the holidays ...
lG, jiu
Diagram Of Facial Muscles Of Expression
eulogy
Well, we had to yesterday in German so keep our speech - the physics lecture hall before them all. I have the whole body trembled as I stood there in front. Actually I had thought I would stick all the time on paper (or paperboard on the piano xD), but then I have counteracted the, Just as I looked into the audience from the start. Well, I looked up, but I have seen no one. I'm just nervous herumgefuchelt with his hands, trying to free speech put forward, which ended when I have almost completely improvised and wanted to simply getting one behind me. Afterwards, my German teacher has told me then that the speech itself was quite good, but it has hardly understood the lecture. But who understands me already ^ ^ "? Patros! Patros said the talk would have been perfect and he would have understood everything ^ ^. Anyway, all the very attempt it well, I thought. Ronja had a very personal, but beautiful eulogy (they has not the name of the dead is a Times referred to, but talk directly with him), and Christian Patros for René, who is (once again sit), sealed and Jenny had, I think, not once look at their list. Daria they have made quite ready for her speech. They have not given a positive aspect that was it figures ...
Philip, Mark, Mona and Hanna have held their first speeches today. Marks was 18 to Date of birth and ... appropriate to the occasion. Rather loosely argued, but it fits well. Philipp has a (praise?) Kept talking about my Franze-/Philo-/Lieblingslehrer. Consisting only of insiders, but it was really great. Especially great was the place to be incredible, breathtaking pace: "While we managed to finish in a school year 2 lessons of the book, the parallel class just through the whole book." : D
lG, jiu
PS: Yesterday I was so tired that I fell asleep around 7:30 oO Something is wrong here ...
Well, we had to yesterday in German so keep our speech - the physics lecture hall before them all. I have the whole body trembled as I stood there in front. Actually I had thought I would stick all the time on paper (or paperboard on the piano xD), but then I have counteracted the, Just as I looked into the audience from the start. Well, I looked up, but I have seen no one. I'm just nervous herumgefuchelt with his hands, trying to free speech put forward, which ended when I have almost completely improvised and wanted to simply getting one behind me. Afterwards, my German teacher has told me then that the speech itself was quite good, but it has hardly understood the lecture. But who understands me already ^ ^ "? Patros! Patros said the talk would have been perfect and he would have understood everything ^ ^. Anyway, all the very attempt it well, I thought. Ronja had a very personal, but beautiful eulogy (they has not the name of the dead is a Times referred to, but talk directly with him), and Christian Patros for René, who is (once again sit), sealed and Jenny had, I think, not once look at their list. Daria they have made quite ready for her speech. They have not given a positive aspect that was it figures ...
Philip, Mark, Mona and Hanna have held their first speeches today. Marks was 18 to Date of birth and ... appropriate to the occasion. Rather loosely argued, but it fits well. Philipp has a (praise?) Kept talking about my Franze-/Philo-/Lieblingslehrer. Consisting only of insiders, but it was really great. Especially great was the place to be incredible, breathtaking pace: "While we managed to finish in a school year 2 lessons of the book, the parallel class just through the whole book." : D
lG, jiu
PS: Yesterday I was so tired that I fell asleep around 7:30 oO Something is wrong here ...
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
14 Foot Aluminum Boat Floor Mod
first Appointment with the school psychologist, a
Today he was, the big day. I was with Daria in school psychologist.
Previously we had only 3 (school) hours due to the relocation of the whole and therefore Abigenten 2 (time) hours, we had to somehow beat dead. We will for simplicity first set in a café pixels and tries to write our speeches for German, which we must hold morning (!). However, I nothing occurred, so I'll have to do it or not after after training - as always in the last minute -.-". Well, after that we still got to work by Halver strolled and took a look at the "city". I thought all the time: "I do not want," but finally we stood still at the door and knock, I had
The psychologist was nice I was to start pretty hard (Daria had kindly> precedence left.. . '), but after that it was ok. It took us longer than I had thought, though I once again forgot to tell the half.
and Darias My next appointment is on Tuesday, to 03.07. We have agreed that I tell my parents that I accompany her there and that she says she accompanied me. Is actually too ...
lG, jiu
Today he was, the big day. I was with Daria in school psychologist.
Previously we had only 3 (school) hours due to the relocation of the whole and therefore Abigenten 2 (time) hours, we had to somehow beat dead. We will for simplicity first set in a café pixels and tries to write our speeches for German, which we must hold morning (!). However, I nothing occurred, so I'll have to do it or not after after training - as always in the last minute -.-". Well, after that we still got to work by Halver strolled and took a look at the "city". I thought all the time: "I do not want," but finally we stood still at the door and knock, I had
The psychologist was nice I was to start pretty hard (Daria had kindly> precedence left.. . '), but after that it was ok. It took us longer than I had thought, though I once again forgot to tell the half.
and Darias My next appointment is on Tuesday, to 03.07. We have agreed that I tell my parents that I accompany her there and that she says she accompanied me. Is actually too ...
lG, jiu
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Duncan Hines Commercialso Moist
Help me! 11elf
Earlier at dinner, my mother raised me on my arm. She said that I look as if they were beating me, and promptly also had my father to give his two cents and ask what I had done. I had absolutely no idea what to say, so I just shrugged his shoulders and hoped that I would somehow survive without sucking me something from the fingers need to. I've then done. After my father yelled at me enough and had threatened me with PC-ban (which was also so much to do with my arms oO), he can be the topic * phew *. He had me from ever asked 3 times and I had responded well each time. If I'm him so much that he always forgets what I tell him why he asks then ever! This is the same as when I want to go somewhere that is not vital, but I would be fun. When I wanted the book fair, my parents have said that we could do. At the weekend in question but my father had nothing better to do than the car rumzubasteln. The weekend after that he then asked when would that be with the show ... Just as it was then with the School concert. He asked when was that again and I still nothing but "yesterday" to say. On such things, you realize how important it is his father \u0026lt;/ irony>.
Well, after dinner I was completely finished with the nerves. I lay on my bed and had to spend all my strength, so as not to r * n * tz I have not done it, but the need to do it, continues to grow. I'd rather feel pain than the emptiness and the occasional hints of nervousness.
\u0026lt;/ emo> ^ ^
Today was swimming just ok. I have my elected to the as-last-will-I finally got used to long ago and if I time the ball transferor, before I do something wrong, the others have unnerved no reason in this "Oh, Drucksi!" break. When we break from the game had, Pia has tried a bit to talk to me. I'm lately again not very talkative, so I've given my word answers. I feel a bit guilty so, finally, she takes pity on me and I'll shock the case before the head. I mean, hey, I need no pity. I'm all sh * ** ß, alright, but eventually you get used to it, you know ... Well, then did the teacher so 'n play funny game, we had no desire to, and some have bitched so long that they headache have, until he told to whom does the head, and can sit on the bench. I had real headaches (because of the harsh weather, probably) and then I jumped well for a couple of others and walked from the field - if he offers to us ... When dodge ball behind but we had to play all over and that was it ne quite a torture for me. I told Daniel that he should not hesitate to completely throw me in the beginning. He has not done me and my pain has to be noted as well ("Oh, Drucksi" -.-). Oh, and in basketball I have been in Mark's team. I love working with Mark to play. If he says something, then I do that too. When our teacher always gets me out of the total when something calls But Mark is very quiet instructions and praises in between ^ ^.
Oh yes, something very important ^ ^. Today when I wanted morning broadcast on the representation plan, there hung a note that morning in the 1st Break the mediator meet. Super timing! Now I have no story I think for my parents when they ask what have I done with my "mediator" meetings held at 13:45 clock. I just hope that we will discuss is really a lot ...
This school psychologist by the way I want no more. I mean, I'll go there, but I'm really not sure if this is a good idea. How good can that be, if I lie to my mother for muss? Sie vertraut mir und missbrauche dieses Vertrauen. Vielleicht hilft es mir auch einfach, mehr Magnesium zu nehmen...
lG, jiu
Earlier at dinner, my mother raised me on my arm. She said that I look as if they were beating me, and promptly also had my father to give his two cents and ask what I had done. I had absolutely no idea what to say, so I just shrugged his shoulders and hoped that I would somehow survive without sucking me something from the fingers need to. I've then done. After my father yelled at me enough and had threatened me with PC-ban (which was also so much to do with my arms oO), he can be the topic * phew *. He had me from ever asked 3 times and I had responded well each time. If I'm him so much that he always forgets what I tell him why he asks then ever! This is the same as when I want to go somewhere that is not vital, but I would be fun. When I wanted the book fair, my parents have said that we could do. At the weekend in question but my father had nothing better to do than the car rumzubasteln. The weekend after that he then asked when would that be with the show ... Just as it was then with the School concert. He asked when was that again and I still nothing but "yesterday" to say. On such things, you realize how important it is his father \u0026lt;/ irony>.
Well, after dinner I was completely finished with the nerves. I lay on my bed and had to spend all my strength, so as not to r * n * tz I have not done it, but the need to do it, continues to grow. I'd rather feel pain than the emptiness and the occasional hints of nervousness.
\u0026lt;/ emo> ^ ^
Today was swimming just ok. I have my elected to the as-last-will-I finally got used to long ago and if I time the ball transferor, before I do something wrong, the others have unnerved no reason in this "Oh, Drucksi!" break. When we break from the game had, Pia has tried a bit to talk to me. I'm lately again not very talkative, so I've given my word answers. I feel a bit guilty so, finally, she takes pity on me and I'll shock the case before the head. I mean, hey, I need no pity. I'm all sh * ** ß, alright, but eventually you get used to it, you know ... Well, then did the teacher so 'n play funny game, we had no desire to, and some have bitched so long that they headache have, until he told to whom does the head, and can sit on the bench. I had real headaches (because of the harsh weather, probably) and then I jumped well for a couple of others and walked from the field - if he offers to us ... When dodge ball behind but we had to play all over and that was it ne quite a torture for me. I told Daniel that he should not hesitate to completely throw me in the beginning. He has not done me and my pain has to be noted as well ("Oh, Drucksi" -.-). Oh, and in basketball I have been in Mark's team. I love working with Mark to play. If he says something, then I do that too. When our teacher always gets me out of the total when something calls But Mark is very quiet instructions and praises in between ^ ^.
Oh yes, something very important ^ ^. Today when I wanted morning broadcast on the representation plan, there hung a note that morning in the 1st Break the mediator meet. Super timing! Now I have no story I think for my parents when they ask what have I done with my "mediator" meetings held at 13:45 clock. I just hope that we will discuss is really a lot ...
This school psychologist by the way I want no more. I mean, I'll go there, but I'm really not sure if this is a good idea. How good can that be, if I lie to my mother for muss? Sie vertraut mir und missbrauche dieses Vertrauen. Vielleicht hilft es mir auch einfach, mehr Magnesium zu nehmen...
lG, jiu
Sunday, June 10, 2007
Contact Cases On Plane
Thank you elias_destiny, dinofagi (and others who I have not seen yet at LiveJournal)
Snagged from halfbloodme 's journal:
If there are one or more people on your friends list who make your world a better place just because they exist, and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the internet, then post this same sentence in your journal.
I think, this is a lovely idea and I wanted to thank all the wonderful people, I met at the "Selbstmord-Thread". You helped me so much and I promise, I'll always be there for you. Lots of kisses from a very emotional jiu
Snagged from
halfbloodme 's journal: If there are one or more people on your friends list who make your world a better place just because they exist, and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the internet, then post this same sentence in your journal.
I think, this is a lovely idea and I wanted to thank all the wonderful people, I met at the "Selbstmord-Thread". You helped me so much and I promise, I'll always be there for you. Lots of kisses from a very emotional jiu
Boat Salvage In Muskoka
Thank God I'm alive!
Maybe I should go more often with my father a car, as you learn properly value the life ...
Well, from the beginning: We were on the junk and have just come back - I have a wonderful, striped T-shirt imprinted with Playboy bought ^ ^, only mentioned once in passing ... In any case, we were sitting in the car and my father is gone. I was very much in mind and have not really made sure that happened around me, so I really do not know exactly what happened. I've just noticed that my father in the middle of overtaking suddenly swerved make left and had started to curse. On those oaths I could rhyme with me then together, that was probably occurred during overtaking a motorcyclist on the same idea and sometimes just flit past did - at the same time on both cars (he has not succeeded, and we were faster) (!). My Dad always excited about something on for hours, but my mother gave it right for once, so I'm going assume that it was not really ok - I've seen nothing. Even worse, it was then, however, when the motorcyclist finally has made us obsolete and this nice gesture ... My father can offer something not of course - if one gets excited about all Sch ** ß, then something of course, particularly * rolling eyes * - the gas and immediately afterwards. My mother cries, let him have it, I pinch just to be the eyes, we are in with 120 in the closed city. I just thought: "Well, hallelujah, if wishes to knock down and kill it, we must not copy's, is not it?" Thank God nothing happened, but 120 on curved track is not really funny! On the highway is not a problem, but so? Well, I'm still alive, the motorcyclist stuck under warranty at some point before the crash barrier and my father was (10 minutes later), I think, also calmed down ...
lG, jiu
EDIT: I was wrong, he has still not soothes - (!) after one hour
Maybe I should go more often with my father a car, as you learn properly value the life ...
Well, from the beginning: We were on the junk and have just come back - I have a wonderful, striped T-shirt imprinted with Playboy bought ^ ^, only mentioned once in passing ... In any case, we were sitting in the car and my father is gone. I was very much in mind and have not really made sure that happened around me, so I really do not know exactly what happened. I've just noticed that my father in the middle of overtaking suddenly swerved make left and had started to curse. On those oaths I could rhyme with me then together, that was probably occurred during overtaking a motorcyclist on the same idea and sometimes just flit past did - at the same time on both cars (he has not succeeded, and we were faster) (!). My Dad always excited about something on for hours, but my mother gave it right for once, so I'm going assume that it was not really ok - I've seen nothing. Even worse, it was then, however, when the motorcyclist finally has made us obsolete and this nice gesture ... My father can offer something not of course - if one gets excited about all Sch ** ß, then something of course, particularly * rolling eyes * - the gas and immediately afterwards. My mother cries, let him have it, I pinch just to be the eyes, we are in with 120 in the closed city. I just thought: "Well, hallelujah, if wishes to knock down and kill it, we must not copy's, is not it?" Thank God nothing happened, but 120 on curved track is not really funny! On the highway is not a problem, but so? Well, I'm still alive, the motorcyclist stuck under warranty at some point before the crash barrier and my father was (10 minutes later), I think, also calmed down ...
lG, jiu
EDIT: I was wrong, he has still not soothes - (!) after one hour
Friday, June 8, 2007
Brazilian Waxing At Home In Abudhabi
Mother Of The Bride Lisburn Road
I'm just down only ... and I'm just excited
I do not know why, but mentally I'm just goes completely worn out and physically it to me even worse to me is just bad. (and I have a headache, but that's always a permanent condition) My German teacher is always asking for something. "From the head or from the stomach?" For me at the moment everything 'ne head thing. but I'd still like to pass me easily. I can not. First, I'm afraid that someone mitkriegt and second, I'm tired of that, and to develop ne eating disorder. My chemistry teacher wanted me to finally persuaded to eat a piece of cake because I was supposedly too thin. She said: "You do not want to be as anorexic?" So 'n nonsense. Before, I was perhaps too thin, now would 'n few pounds harm no less real. I should just stop eating constantly ...
Speaking Chemistry: We have said get the notes (again) and what this woman was thinking, is a mystery to me. Probably nothing at all. Julia had planned to get a 1 in chemistry and I think it would have the deserves real because they can trade and even more reports. Finally, the teacher then said to her, she gets' ne 2, because she managed to beat the test. But Julia always trounces the test, which can hold a better explanation to write down than that. She said the teacher and the beginning of the school year and the thought would be ok, they would fail the test are so strong. Pah! The expanding its score for the entire half of the year on a test. They do not know want another note in her book. Julia is now getting a 3 - with "three closed his eyes" ... I get 'ne 1, while I get the mouth but not on. The notes could you better change. Would probably not notice anyway, which knows not even our names ... Katrina was 'ne 2 and has' got ne third It has fully excited because Daria also 'ne 3 and get it believes so, they would have brought much more than Daria. Wow, the k * supported me in so if you always talk about music. In physics and Franze the same. Katrina thinks she may have in physics' ne deserves better grade than me, yet we have the same grade in the test and as little (ie nothing) said. Franze and they would ask if they can not get more 'ne 1, because she has not written ones finally 2. She said to me. "Questions costs nothing I will only know if this is possible, so that I can still work hard times. "Jap, when they are in the 2 hours Franze, we have yet to Thursday, strains, it is certainly a worthy first raises the fact that Nichtssagerei all other hours of the entire half-year to -? what I think the really
in physics, 'ne third so I am not satisfied, but I did not stop more deserves the 3 + in Franze is also well below my level. but if I'm too stupid to myself to set times for learning, that's probably my own fault!
Also, my Schn * tt on the wrist today itched evil and I was scratching ever tried it. Julia has kept me from if it's has seen. I was standing at the bus again so that, Katrin asked me but in all seriousness: "Do you look at the injury actually own?" No, I always cozy at night with my pocket knife, as can happen before, that one by mistake Sect ** d * t! I want to make today the day something broke. Therefore, I have my English reading thrown against the wall. The look now ... Well, it does not matter.
Did yesterday evening / night or chatted with Julia. They told me about the class party. Our class teacher was full and danced as the first full funny and the songs mitgegrölt ^ ^ ", Benny wanted to drink his own K * tz * and by 12 any case were only 8 people awake. So that's I have not missed much ... Then we
have spoken about their internet acquaintances, Benjamin,. Has end-stage lung cancer. The doctors give him even more from 2 to 2.5 months. Full sch ** ß *, I did not at all what to say. The only thing I thought was, "Oh, God." Still, he pushed it and did not want to talk about it, but I'm worried that he pulls down with Julia, when he was in the 4th Phase, the depression comes. Julia told me then also the whole story with the divorce of their parents and we have talked about the evil in people. She plays her role really well. I did not think that that happiness sometimes A mask is ...
Well before I was just still a little bit with her crying out of my stupidity, because I have fallen into the trap and Micha him again wrote ...
lG, jiu
I do not know why, but mentally I'm just goes completely worn out and physically it to me even worse to me is just bad. (and I have a headache, but that's always a permanent condition) My German teacher is always asking for something. "From the head or from the stomach?" For me at the moment everything 'ne head thing. but I'd still like to pass me easily. I can not. First, I'm afraid that someone mitkriegt and second, I'm tired of that, and to develop ne eating disorder. My chemistry teacher wanted me to finally persuaded to eat a piece of cake because I was supposedly too thin. She said: "You do not want to be as anorexic?" So 'n nonsense. Before, I was perhaps too thin, now would 'n few pounds harm no less real. I should just stop eating constantly ...
Speaking Chemistry: We have said get the notes (again) and what this woman was thinking, is a mystery to me. Probably nothing at all. Julia had planned to get a 1 in chemistry and I think it would have the deserves real because they can trade and even more reports. Finally, the teacher then said to her, she gets' ne 2, because she managed to beat the test. But Julia always trounces the test, which can hold a better explanation to write down than that. She said the teacher and the beginning of the school year and the thought would be ok, they would fail the test are so strong. Pah! The expanding its score for the entire half of the year on a test. They do not know want another note in her book. Julia is now getting a 3 - with "three closed his eyes" ... I get 'ne 1, while I get the mouth but not on. The notes could you better change. Would probably not notice anyway, which knows not even our names ... Katrina was 'ne 2 and has' got ne third It has fully excited because Daria also 'ne 3 and get it believes so, they would have brought much more than Daria. Wow, the k * supported me in so if you always talk about music. In physics and Franze the same. Katrina thinks she may have in physics' ne deserves better grade than me, yet we have the same grade in the test and as little (ie nothing) said. Franze and they would ask if they can not get more 'ne 1, because she has not written ones finally 2. She said to me. "Questions costs nothing I will only know if this is possible, so that I can still work hard times. "Jap, when they are in the 2 hours Franze, we have yet to Thursday, strains, it is certainly a worthy first raises the fact that Nichtssagerei all other hours of the entire half-year to -? what I think the really
in physics, 'ne third so I am not satisfied, but I did not stop more deserves the 3 + in Franze is also well below my level. but if I'm too stupid to myself to set times for learning, that's probably my own fault!
Also, my Schn * tt on the wrist today itched evil and I was scratching ever tried it. Julia has kept me from if it's has seen. I was standing at the bus again so that, Katrin asked me but in all seriousness: "Do you look at the injury actually own?" No, I always cozy at night with my pocket knife, as can happen before, that one by mistake Sect ** d * t! I want to make today the day something broke. Therefore, I have my English reading thrown against the wall. The look now ... Well, it does not matter.
Did yesterday evening / night or chatted with Julia. They told me about the class party. Our class teacher was full and danced as the first full funny and the songs mitgegrölt ^ ^ ", Benny wanted to drink his own K * tz * and by 12 any case were only 8 people awake. So that's I have not missed much ... Then we
have spoken about their internet acquaintances, Benjamin,. Has end-stage lung cancer. The doctors give him even more from 2 to 2.5 months. Full sch ** ß *, I did not at all what to say. The only thing I thought was, "Oh, God." Still, he pushed it and did not want to talk about it, but I'm worried that he pulls down with Julia, when he was in the 4th Phase, the depression comes. Julia told me then also the whole story with the divorce of their parents and we have talked about the evil in people. She plays her role really well. I did not think that that happiness sometimes A mask is ...
Well before I was just still a little bit with her crying out of my stupidity, because I have fallen into the trap and Micha him again wrote ...
lG, jiu
Wednesday, June 6, 2007
Viral Infection Infant
magnesium deficiency, calls & break test
first Yesterday I found out what magnesium deficiency, I have long been under warranty, cause anything can: www.magno-sanol.de/ ... These symptoms I have pretty much everything except a few exceptions in the areas of "cardiovascular" and "stomach / abdomen. I'll probably still need to take more magnesium ...
second I have just made two calls. The first was with my cousin and friend, Jasmin, which I for months not get to see and I've missed quite. I've proposed that we meet again and she agreed. However, I have the feeling that we have distanced ourselves greatly. When I said I'm just getting back from the first Taekwon-Do, she said, "Oh, are you still?". It's just a minor thing, but this sentence struck me full. I've been thinking about for some time to talk to Jasmine about my problems, but I'm afraid that it has changed ...
the second call I made after I lied to my mother. I got it (in some detail - "Rule number seven: Always be specific when you lie ") tells that I have on Wednesday a mediator meeting and then by 15 clock the bus to come home then I have the school psychologist talked to the AB and confirmed the appointment for me and Daria -. at least I hope I said Wednesday I, I'm sure the kind of principle, not ...
The appointment is at 13:45 clock, but we've most probably on Wednesday after the 4th hour free, so I 'got a lot of time to me' come NEN Basic leave, but why I should not go ... Thank God, comes with Daria, the least I can trail behind ... On the other hand, I'm also afraid that I can not speak freely when they next sits. I am recently anyway not too talkative - I think I get so slow 'nen relapse ...
third I have now practiced during training break test. At the third attempt I got it then finally made. Before that I was with my thoughts again somewhere else and could not concentrate. If that's the test and so, I see black ...
lG, jiu
first Yesterday I found out what magnesium deficiency, I have long been under warranty, cause anything can: www.magno-sanol.de/ ... These symptoms I have pretty much everything except a few exceptions in the areas of "cardiovascular" and "stomach / abdomen. I'll probably still need to take more magnesium ...
second I have just made two calls. The first was with my cousin and friend, Jasmin, which I for months not get to see and I've missed quite. I've proposed that we meet again and she agreed. However, I have the feeling that we have distanced ourselves greatly. When I said I'm just getting back from the first Taekwon-Do, she said, "Oh, are you still?". It's just a minor thing, but this sentence struck me full. I've been thinking about for some time to talk to Jasmine about my problems, but I'm afraid that it has changed ...
the second call I made after I lied to my mother. I got it (in some detail - "Rule number seven: Always be specific when you lie ") tells that I have on Wednesday a mediator meeting and then by 15 clock the bus to come home then I have the school psychologist talked to the AB and confirmed the appointment for me and Daria -. at least I hope I said Wednesday I, I'm sure the kind of principle, not ...
The appointment is at 13:45 clock, but we've most probably on Wednesday after the 4th hour free, so I 'got a lot of time to me' come NEN Basic leave, but why I should not go ... Thank God, comes with Daria, the least I can trail behind ... On the other hand, I'm also afraid that I can not speak freely when they next sits. I am recently anyway not too talkative - I think I get so slow 'nen relapse ...
third I have now practiced during training break test. At the third attempt I got it then finally made. Before that I was with my thoughts again somewhere else and could not concentrate. If that's the test and so, I see black ...
lG, jiu
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