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Fri, 03:08:07, 16:25 clock

The film was yesterday Sun He was pretty effektheischerisch and I took most of the time tended to focus on the errors, but otherwise quite nice. Maybe I was just too tired to be excited.

Normally there are popcorn when we go to the movies, we do it anyway so rare. This time I've dispensed with, which surprised my mom pretty. Of the Haribo cherries, it has offered me, but I ate 3 pieces.

At home there was pizza, my whole Daily balance is messed up. Actually, I like pizza, even if it gives us far too often. But yesterday it took me so alittle bit disgusted

Tarek had while we were away, visiting and tinkered a bit - to include styrofoam. There were quite a crash, because he has sucked away the remains and the vacuum cleaner would have been almost destroyed. My mother was extremely annoyed, and has argued with Dad. She called through the apartment, whether we would find it better if they would also just set the whole day on a PC. I always feel damn guilty if someone screams - even though I, unlike yesterday, I'm not even addressed. Also, I've always illogically a certain fear that to let my parents divorce when they argue. I hope my father is going away soon for a cure.

I'm asleep in the evening watching TV, but my brother got me wake. Thank God I was still asleep relatively quickly, when I was in bed. Woke up

I'm also relatively early. This works with getting up but not quite.

Then said my father to have to annoy me and told me in detail that we need to collect my payment, the family doctor, however, to make in half an hour and we do not have a car, because Mama is indeed at work and Peter is not even there just to tell me then, I can pick up the transfer at half past 3 in the pharmacy in the village.
I was then too, but had received no referral. I was even in both pharmacies, but nowhere they had arrived. When the family doctor was no more, so my father will be on Monday morning to get involved.

For lunch I ate a little rice with curry sauce and peas and carrots.

is nice weather outside, I think I'll go out a little.

clock 18:04

I am now back again, was' an hour on the road. Finally I once did what I always wanted to do again. I'm looking for a direction decided and I just went - without a goal, only to a specific time.
I almost came to Rummenohl, just before I have repented. To go back felt weird because I suddenly had a goal yet. Somewhere I also wanted to return not, I think.
At Aldi I then met Peter and let him take me. But instead I have helped him and listened to him. Peter hears himself talk, I have the feeling.
Now I will drink something and eat only a little fruit.

clock 18:54

I be real 'ne masochist needs. I get my mind off of my hunger and watch a cooking show * headdesk *

clock 19:34

I hate cooking shows, but now I eat something else. I have no discipline.

times today I will go to bed early. Maybe I'm able to get up tomorrow exceptionally early. I also have tomorrow to pack my school bag. If I only do Monday morning, so I forget everything.

clock 22:02

waking sleep, the time between and is the most terrible of the day. If one tries to sleep, the thoughts are so loud and painful. I just want to sleep yet (and not wake up).

I want to believe (again?). I want something that I hold on me can, which I take my (ongoing) fear of death. I wish nothing more than to believe in God.

Sat, 04:08:07, 1:56 clock

Now I'm wide awake and can not sleep again.